I know not what she has done to me, but she has made me a different person altogether. It took me years to realize her presence in my life but even after realizing her presence in my life I took a long time in knowing her, in accepting her, in loving her and to be entwined with her.
All this long (after I had my life in my hold) I had been searching for someone who was a figment of my imagination and not someone who was really there for me. I just didn’t realize that she was there with me all along. She was there when “SHE” wasn’t there, when I was there in deep trenches looking for light of hope, when I had “THEM”, when I was struggling to find meanings, when I was alone………..
To be honest, it was then, when I was all alone that I realized her presence in my life. I realized that I had an ear to my every word, a companion to my lonely walks, a helping hand to my tasks, a thought for my every thought and a heart to beat for me. Acknowledging her presence was difficult. This world doesn’t accept her presence in my life. They call me a loner, a detached soul, a moron, an abnormal being. Is it imperative to have someone in your life that others force onto you? Why can’t I be the way I want to be? Why I have to accept the norms of the societies? Why those dogmas are imposed on me?
I’m a reformist. I would do things, the way I want them to. Accepting someone else’s thought over mine is not acceptable to me. It’s not a defeat, no it’s not ego as well, but as long as I can think for myself, I would not accept someone else over me. To accept her as my soul mate was my choice. Some would acknowledge, some would detest but that doesn’t change the status quo. It has already been late in accepting her and when I have done it, I won’t step back.
She is none other than my "LONELINESS" that I have made my soul mate and I promise to stand by her.
All this long (after I had my life in my hold) I had been searching for someone who was a figment of my imagination and not someone who was really there for me. I just didn’t realize that she was there with me all along. She was there when “SHE” wasn’t there, when I was there in deep trenches looking for light of hope, when I had “THEM”, when I was struggling to find meanings, when I was alone………..
To be honest, it was then, when I was all alone that I realized her presence in my life. I realized that I had an ear to my every word, a companion to my lonely walks, a helping hand to my tasks, a thought for my every thought and a heart to beat for me. Acknowledging her presence was difficult. This world doesn’t accept her presence in my life. They call me a loner, a detached soul, a moron, an abnormal being. Is it imperative to have someone in your life that others force onto you? Why can’t I be the way I want to be? Why I have to accept the norms of the societies? Why those dogmas are imposed on me?
I’m a reformist. I would do things, the way I want them to. Accepting someone else’s thought over mine is not acceptable to me. It’s not a defeat, no it’s not ego as well, but as long as I can think for myself, I would not accept someone else over me. To accept her as my soul mate was my choice. Some would acknowledge, some would detest but that doesn’t change the status quo. It has already been late in accepting her and when I have done it, I won’t step back.
She is none other than my "LONELINESS" that I have made my soul mate and I promise to stand by her.
